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Assalamualai'kum WaRahmatullahi WaBarakatuh..

Dulu aku selalu mendengar satu phrase ani, "Ini lah tumpah darah kita." Mungkin masa aku masih kanak-kanak, fikiranku melampau belum matangnya. Therefore, I always thought about the fact that where we were born correlated to where we should die. Meaning to say, lahir di Brunei, meninggal pun di Brunei. 

Huh, betapa aku tu betol-betol shallow-minded. Then aku terfikir lagi; "Jadinya kalau someday, the possibility of my mother to go back to where she came from is also probably high?." Macam-macam yang bermain di otak ku yang selama ani penuh dengan fantasi yang tiada logikanya. However today, I realise something, it is not about where you came from, it is about where you feel like home. 

Plus bila dikaitkan the fact that ajal atu indakan menunggu di mana diri kitani berada ataupun pukul berapa kitani makan or sebagainya, ani dah menunjukkan bahawa nyawa kitani atu akan dicabut bila-bila masa tanpa menghiraukan dimana walhal kitani behapa masa atu pun nada memberi effect apa-apa. Malaikat Izrail indakan menunggu kitani sampai ke Brunei barutah kan mencabut nyawa kitani, No. Bila Allah suruh end our life, that is when Malaikat Izrail making an action. 

I also remember the conversation I had with my sister, it was way back when I was just kanak-kanak yang inda tahu apa-apa. Conversation kami bunyinya kira-kira macam ani;

Kaka: Ko nanti, ko mo mati macam mana?
Aku: Huh?
Kaka: Ko pilih mana satu.. Mati pasal tua, mati accident, mati pasal penyakit, mati masa belajar, mati syahid..
Aku: Apakan tu? Mati masa belajarlah, bisai.
Kaka: Oh, yakah. Kalau aku, aku mo mati syahid plang, tarus masuk syurga.
Aku: Ah? Bah, aku ikut jua eh, mati syahid.

Beberapa tahun selepas atu barulah ku tahu makna 'mati syahid' atu. Then aku ingat aku cakap macam ani, "Padantah tarus masuk syurga." Good old days. Now that I think about it, macam manakan mati syahid? Should I go to Palestine and fight? There's a lot of things sebenarnya we can do. I admire my brothers and sisters yang fight for their Islamic rights in those affected countries. Macam eventhough they suffer now, they just know and yakin that in the end agama Allah will win, then, now and in the future. Aku lihat sendiri, ramai yang memilih Islam, ani dah menunjukkan sebenarnya, mana yang hak dan batil, mana yang jahat dan yang baik. Mungkin kitani indakan dapat ikut berperang jua now but......

RrJ